update!
so this gallery is getting a little out-dated for my taste... i have new things to post, new people to impress (professors n whatnot), and a new level of professionalism that i need to start following. this brings me to my next point... i have a new deviantart account! my new gallery can be found on ~sbailey415!
theres nothing up, yet... i made this thing yesterday and havent had time to add anything, but go read up on my journal over there and add me if you would like to see where i am headed with my new pieces of artwork!
please, enjoy!

much love, ciao

so here i am, at school when i dont have to be. my electronic layout requires us to use adobe indesign, and lucky me! i dont have it. and im frustrated... i just finished my assignment, and im completely unsatisfied with it. but i forget how else i can edit it and make it look better. we had to create a magazine spread of a place. thats the only requirements he put on us, basically. so i chose mozambique. found cool ass pictures, found some cool information to copy and paste in for the type (yes, thats ok for this project, lol... im not really plagiarizing). i even did some cool editing and cropping on the pictures so the text would wrap around less geometrically straight edges. but its still just crappy to me. i dont like it... but whatever, im sick of working on it. ive spent a good few hours working on it all together and it looks like i kinda just threw it up onto the page. wish me luck.

i think part of the reason im so frustrated is because lately ive been wanting to get into the journalist side of art. traveling, taking pictures, writing about my experience, and putting it all together into magazine or book layouts. im probably being too hard on myself, though. im still getting used to indesign (even though i worked with it for two years for yearbook... it was totally different than how i am being taught to use it now).

but despite all this frustration, im kinda glad i came out to the school today. it gave me a chance to come be by myself for a little while. im surrounded by people in the computer lab, but i have my headphones on and everyone is minding their own business. i am rather relaxed, im listening to the new reggae mix i made the other day... and it kicks ASS! im in love with reggae, i cant get enough of it!

anywho, alone time should always be valued. ive come to realize i dont get enough of it lately. ive begun to go stir crazy because i sit at my house or at my neighbors all day, every day and get high. but im so bored of that routine, and finally i kinda got a mini chance to refresh myself... by frustrating myself with homework but at least im accomplishing something, right?

.... alright... off to work on image manipulation homework, perhaps!
peace, love, and positive energy to all

so i feel like a floater. a wanderer. a nomad. a balloon caught in the breeze.
but thats only in my thoughts. i dont know where im going or what im doing, necessarily.
i have goals, i guess. i want to be fulfilled in life. i want to travel. i want to know love.
general goals. everyone else's goals. i dont know what i want to do.
i love photography and i can do a lot with it. maybe.
maybe i can work for some art magazine. i dont know.
i feel so indecisive and dont know how to flip it around.
i think im too easy going. i see myself as an easy target for getting taken advantage of.
and ive seen and thought these things before, but i havent done anything about it yet.
i need to stop talking and start doing.
but im tired. and i have school. and i have a social life of sorts.
i need to stop making excuses.
but i also need to go.
im done venting for now.


good day, all

so here it goes! i am on my way into another part of my mind. i feel the giggles a little bit, but i feel more heightened than anything else. pure, energetic, precise. the music is just starting to tap on my eardrums the way that makes me tingle. its supposed to be a mental trip that may open my mind up a bit more. i need to start being more open. i need to be honest with myself before i can be honest with any other person.

id like to think im different... but i dont feel like i am.
id like to think things are sincere... but i dont feel like they are.
id like to think im not overreacting... but i think i am.
maybe its because i feel sick lately... and my body wants me to stop and rest.
maybe im already tired of this quarter... and this is only the first week.

my second quarter of classes started on wednesday. i have classes wed-fri... 5 classes, 15 credits. so far, im overwhelmed already. my classes are color theory, image manipulation, electronic layout, typography 1, and intro to photography. color theory will be time consuming and tedious. image manipulation shouldnt be too hard, except my teacher already bothers me... im trying to switch into another class with another teacher. electronic layout is going to kick my ass, im already lost on our first assignment. im in typography 1 right now and my teacher seems like a badass, but a hardass. she is sarcastic with a dry humor, but she wants shit done her way in her time period. and thats it, no questions asked, no excuses accepted. i have photography next and im pretty sure i have the skills and knowledge to skip the introduction class but i dont know if they will let me into a photography 2 class because i have no real paperwork specifying that ive had previous experience. i can create a portfolio but i dont know that they will accept it. and im starting to think i wont have the energy to put the extra effort into photo 2. im talking to my adviser on tuesday, hopefully.

and hey, does anyone know anything about mono? i need to start looking up symptoms, i think...